It's Official... I'm Insane

The little girl isn't even close to being here yet and I'm already fraught with worry. Here's what I went through just prior to a week-long business trip to Montreal:

Why aren't my toxoplasmosis results back yet? What if I was exposed during pregnancy?

What if the cord gets tangled around her neck?

What if her widdle bitty heart just stops beating? It's so tiny. How does it even work yet?

Google: No heartbeat 14 weeks

Google: Miscarriage 14 weeks causes

Google: Miscarriage 15 weeks

Google: Missed miscarriage second trimester

Google: When will I feel my baby kick?

Google: At-home fetal heart monitor good bad?

Google: Toxoplasmosis exposure first trimester

Google: Toxoplasmosis exposure pre-pregnancy

Google: Toxoplasmosis symptoms

Google: Goddammit Google! Why can't you just tell me that my baby is going to be just fine and to stop fucking worrying myself (and possibly the baby) to death?

So, after a few days of pointless and unproductive worrying, I finally caved and reached out to my pal and phenomenal phlebologist at my OBGYN's office to see if I could squeeze in another sonogram before my trip to Montreal because...

a) I'm not a good flier and was already nervous enough about that.
b) I wasn't okay with going to Montreal without hearing her heartbeat again.

Fortunately, my insanity is not uncommon, and they had no problem with me coming in for a pre-Montreal sono.

Heartbeat was there... all looked good. THIRD Toxoplasmosis test came back and confirmed that yes, I had toxo at some point or another, (most likely years ago during my pro-cat days... not as hip on cats anymore), but fortunately, it was very much pre-pregnancy.

And then in Montreal, this happened!

Finally - a bit of a bump so I don't just look fat with gigantic boobs and big feet.

I'm back from Montreal - and just had the first anatomy scan. Little G is looking fabulous. Saw her hiccup and saw her widdle bitty hands and foots and everything!

Feeling pretty celebratory today.