What Were We Thinking?!?!?!?!

Seriously, I cannot emphasize enough how ecstatically happy I am that we decided to 'kid.'

This little girl has brought so much joy into our lives that I sometimes feel like I am going to burst. I am well-aware that we are not the first parents to say this - and I'm certain that we won't be the last.

All of those reservations I had? The ones about finances, my already too-large chest, struggles with weight and selfishness in general? WAY out the fucking window. Now we, (both John and I) ask ourselves how we ever even hesitated. Hindsight's 20/20 kids.

That said, the hesitation really isn't all that surprising when you think about it. You simply don't know how you're going to feel until you dive in - and once you do, there's no turning back - which is why I think it is such a scary prospect... at least for some of us. There's always the chance you'll regret it. I've read a handful of stories about women who do, which is truly tragic. I can't even imagine what a horrible feeling that must be - and I feel for those women. What must it be like to feel as if you made a huge mistake - one you cannot undo?

Fortunately, neither of us can even begin to fathom that. Gypsy's smile - and now her infectious laugh... they're like crack. We cannot get enough.

I just can't imagine my life without her anymore. Life pre-Gypsy seems a bit empty now. Sharing my 39th birthday with her was the best gift ever. She's the best gift ever. I'm sorry I'm gushing - but I can't help it.

Can you blame me?

I mean Jesus. Look at this ridiculous face - with the squishiest, rosiest, cutest most kissable cheeks ever.

She is already inspiring me to be better... to do better on so many levels - as a wife, as a working mom - as someone who can hopefully guide her to lead an extraordinary life filled with her own joys and triumphs, tears and laughter, adventures and misadventures. I can't wait to see what this little one gets into.